somtimes i think my life is a big joke, seriously when i look at some of my freinds there life is so much better then mine and i dont understand how they have such good lives and why mine sucks so bad...  My family sucks and my friends dont understand me so i dont take the time and waste my breath cuz i know even if i tried to talk about my problems they would not get it so i am just quiet when it comes to my problems... My boyfriend thinks i am depressed and he gets mad at himself when im not happy cuz he thinks he cant make me happy but really when im with him it makes me so happy i just dont show it cuz im sad at the same time.I hold all my pain inside and then at the end of the night i lie down in my bed and cry my pathetic self to sleep. I try my best at everything but i always fail.. 2 weeks ago i started to talk about my feelings and my problems to my english teacher mr. J and omg he is so unbelievable kind and he listens to what i have to say which i found really nice, i think i am going to continue to talk to him cuz i can get some things out by talking to him.. other than that i will prolly just rant in here and everyone who reads this will be confused but its ok cuz this helps me by talking to this journal thingy. If any of you who read this have comments please post it will be good for me to read them. well im out... *Ang3l girl*