sometimes i really hate my life, my best friend offically hates me so i guess that makes him no longer my best friend. and because of that i lost almost all of the friends i had left. and i lost all of the other ones because i was friends with him. right now i have NOTHING left! NOTHING! i'm half tempted to just give up on life its self. who would think that things could go so shitty so fast! ugh! i'm sick of all this and just want it all to end... and the sad part is that if i was gone, everything would be better for everyone. i'm an unwanted part of socity. i'm tempted to ditch school for a day or 2 and drive to florida or north carolina... acctually ANYWHERE but here! maybe this weekend after the staff thing i'll drive to tahuya and see Ginger! or visit Christine... or anyone who doesnt hate me! GAH! i hate this so much! i'm just ready for it all to end!!! 6 more days.... only 6 more days and I will be happy cause brock will be home and even if nothing happens with us i really dont care cause i'll atleast have someone to talk to then. 6 DAYS in counting!!!

~Jessie!