todays better. he knows how i feel at least, that makes it a bit more bearable...not that my opinion is going to change his mind.

it just is soo stupid. he says he loves me, but when it comes time for him to actually PROVE it to me, he cant.

What is love? ultimatly sacrifice... why cant he sacrifice this part of him for me? for love?

But i suppose it could be twisted and asked why it is that I just cant accept this part of him...

I tried, but i'll never be able to understand. Picture a glass wall, and I'm on one side, and hes on the other. I can see where he is, And I can see how he got there, and the paths he took and all the details...But ill never be able to touch it. There will always be that bit of misunderstanding, of intangiblilty that makes this harder and harder for us to survive each time we talk about it.

*sigh*

todays better. he knows how i feel at least, that makes it a bit more bearable...not that my opinion is going to change his mind.

it just is soo stupid. he says he loves me, but when it comes time for him to actually PROVE it to me, he cant.

What is love? ultimatly sacrifice... why cant he sacrifice this part of him for me? for love?

But i suppose it could be twisted and asked why it is that I just cant accept this part of him...

I tried, but i'll never be able to understand. Picture a glass wall, and I'm on one side, and hes on the other. I can see where he is, And I can see how he got there, and the paths he took and all the details...But ill never be able to touch it. There will always be that bit of misunderstanding, of intangiblilty that makes this harder and harder for us to survive each time we talk about it.

*sigh*

Today started out great~I was looking forward to an easy day- no tests, no homework, no conflict... wrong, as always in crucial situations.

Turns out I failed my tests, forgot my homework, and was in a lot more conflict than I thought.

Ugh!! Why do people need to be so difficult? And why do i have to care so much?

If it bugs me so bad, why don't I just drop it? Is that what I should do? Is that the right thing? Is that what I need? Is that what WE need? Cause thjats not what I want... Not at all

it just seems so trivial to me, but so huge at once