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Illusions of Sanity by elysian_lushelysian_lush
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I need to keep up with this thing by elysian_lushelysian_lush2004-10-29 16:22:56
the longer i live in this city, the more i realize that i really don't like it, but i wonder if that's just because it's not home. i am trying though. i got a digital camera for my birthday and i'm going around taking pictures of all the things i like in hopes that when i put it all together i'll be able to see it in a different light. maybe from more of a distance.

at least he doesn't like it either. we've talked about moving to knoxville next year. we've talked about getting married too. i guess we've talked about a lot of things. marriage is the big one though. can i see myself as a wife? sounds strange. i see the point of view, "if it's not broken, don't fix it", but i also understand the desire for permanence. i always said i'd never get hitched. some people need to, but i'm not one of those people. i am such a guy (no, not really- wrong plumbing). it just doesn't really matter to me. i'd sooner have his name tattooed on my ass before i'd stand before a minister though. that seems so hypocritical. i'm not a practicing anything and that's just [someone else's] tradition. i'd like to go to the JP and then have a big party.

so as i mentioned, my birthday was this week. no one from my family called, sent a card or even remembered from what i gather. his mother at least sent me a card with a $20 check - HA! i haven't gotten a card w/ a check in it since i was 10. we both took a long weekend and went to pigeon forge (boring), gatlinburg (don't eat at crawdaddy's), cherokee, NC to gamble (i lost $25) and finally biltmore estates (absolutely gorgeous). i took tons of great pictures.

well, this is getting long. tafn.
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