Why is it that whenever things seem to be going great, something always happens to knock you off your pedestal? Like when FOR ONCE I'm doing AMAZING in school,  I have more friends now than I've had collectively my entire life, and I hear from a little birdy that I have a shot at being group commander next year. But in the span of two days, it all managed to come crashing down. First my boyfriend, or so-called boyfriend, doesn't want to have anything to do with me, which got me upset enough, but I later found out that the reason he wants nothing to do with me is because he currently has a girl living with him, and they're "together". However, he didn't feel like telling me this, I had to hear it from everyone else. Then, the trouble at home starts again- with my mother and stepfather blaming me for everything, and telling me they wish they had killed me while i was in the womb, and it was still legal. So, yea that's not all that bad,  I mean, not worse than usual. Then comes the big one. Yesterday, during 8th period (rotc) my old fencing coach, Sharron O Connor, comes in to speak with Colonel. Not thinking anything of it, because she's involved with the corp for several community service problems, I just let it slip my mind. It wasn't until she interrupted a lecture on responsibility, attitude, and pride, that the class realized why she was there. She was telling us about how she never let the fact that she was Handicapped affect the way that she lived, and how she never even thought to blame it on anyone. Then, she says "My son was shot in Iraq on Monday...". WOW. John-- a friend of mine, who I used to fence with, until he joined the Armed services. Do you have any idea how hard that hit me?! Not to mention that before she left, she turned to Sergeant and said, "Thank you sir, you made my son's life worthwhile." WHY DID SHE SAY THAT? Now i'm freaking out because I have NO IDEA what's going on with him- I know he's not dead, but is he critically wounded? or is it just minor? It's to the point where i cant concentrate on anythign else. I think I just need to relax, I'm sure he's fine, and I know that I'll hear that from his mother soon. I hope.

 *Jai